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Legendary Poster
iight well i wrote this about a month ago.. but thought u guyz might wanna read it... so... let me know wut u think...
Life aint what it is made out to be. Its not as great as people make it seem... Well at least for me, This past month was really hard to deal with...Alot of things happened. My life went 4rm being perfect where i thought i had everything and i didnt think that anything could mess that up... Friday May 11th was the day i found out something that woulda changed my life forever.. Not sure if it was a good way or bad way. I was really excited at the end of it all. But May 13, Mothers Day, My life came crashing down on me.. and the thing i wanted the most.. i lost..What i went thru was somwthing no one ever wants to go thru.. NO 1 should have to experiance that. I had my family here for me and to support me thru that time... But there was some part of me that was still missing.. i didnt have the comfort i needed 4rm that one person... Jus as i thought nothing could get any worse.. it did, i lost the love of my life.... He broke up with me... i really needed him.... and if ur reading this.... i dont know why... but that hurt me the most.... the time i REALLY needed u.... u werent there... and u promised me you would always be there 4 me.... no matter where u were or no matter what happend... and as u werent there, i wuz hurt... because them words keep runnin thru my mind... There isnt a day that goes by where i dont think about what we were gonna have and what else we could of possably had, we had plans for the future b4 what happened happend, and now that is something i wont experiance... now or ever... i might in the future but it wont be the same because it wont be with you.We have been thru alot.. i know that... and its not all ur fault.. i do accept responsability on my behalf... i jus dont know how we would let things get this bad... We have had our ups as well as pur downs... maybe we werent meant to be.. but u will always remain in my heart..... After all we have been thru.. i do feel bad.. and i do feel like it is kinda my fault... i dnt know if i should feel this way but i do.... if i could give up anything to have what we had back.. i would in a heart beat... like i said.. u are my heart.... and my life... jus know im always gonna be here 4 u when u need me... i wish u would do the same. So like i said.. i love you. good luck to u in the future... best of wishes and much love and respect.
wrote dis 1 on fathers day..
Today is Fathers day..... All i did wuz wish a boy who woulda been a father Happy fathers day... Even though he wont be one now.... and all i got wuz "Dont ever say that again" how am i suppose to take that and how am i suppose to feel? why do things gotta be this way?!? i was gonna be a mother as well as u being a father... u should take a second to think things thru... we both lost sumthing.. not just one of us... ya our situations are different but i do understand urs... even though u think i dont..... i HAVE been there for you the best i can... and WILL still be here for you... even though what IVE BEEN PUT THROUGH. life aint easy for me... it hasnt been for the past 6 months.... but i have managed and still want/wanted things to work... but it does take two.. i cant do it by myself... Sometimes i wonder if u even think about me.. and think about the family we coulda had... or if it phases u like it phases me.... i guess ill never know.
Life aint what it is made out to be. Its not as great as people make it seem... Well at least for me, This past month was really hard to deal with...Alot of things happened. My life went 4rm being perfect where i thought i had everything and i didnt think that anything could mess that up... Friday May 11th was the day i found out something that woulda changed my life forever.. Not sure if it was a good way or bad way. I was really excited at the end of it all. But May 13, Mothers Day, My life came crashing down on me.. and the thing i wanted the most.. i lost..What i went thru was somwthing no one ever wants to go thru.. NO 1 should have to experiance that. I had my family here for me and to support me thru that time... But there was some part of me that was still missing.. i didnt have the comfort i needed 4rm that one person... Jus as i thought nothing could get any worse.. it did, i lost the love of my life.... He broke up with me... i really needed him.... and if ur reading this.... i dont know why... but that hurt me the most.... the time i REALLY needed u.... u werent there... and u promised me you would always be there 4 me.... no matter where u were or no matter what happend... and as u werent there, i wuz hurt... because them words keep runnin thru my mind... There isnt a day that goes by where i dont think about what we were gonna have and what else we could of possably had, we had plans for the future b4 what happened happend, and now that is something i wont experiance... now or ever... i might in the future but it wont be the same because it wont be with you.We have been thru alot.. i know that... and its not all ur fault.. i do accept responsability on my behalf... i jus dont know how we would let things get this bad... We have had our ups as well as pur downs... maybe we werent meant to be.. but u will always remain in my heart..... After all we have been thru.. i do feel bad.. and i do feel like it is kinda my fault... i dnt know if i should feel this way but i do.... if i could give up anything to have what we had back.. i would in a heart beat... like i said.. u are my heart.... and my life... jus know im always gonna be here 4 u when u need me... i wish u would do the same. So like i said.. i love you. good luck to u in the future... best of wishes and much love and respect.
wrote dis 1 on fathers day..
Today is Fathers day..... All i did wuz wish a boy who woulda been a father Happy fathers day... Even though he wont be one now.... and all i got wuz "Dont ever say that again" how am i suppose to take that and how am i suppose to feel? why do things gotta be this way?!? i was gonna be a mother as well as u being a father... u should take a second to think things thru... we both lost sumthing.. not just one of us... ya our situations are different but i do understand urs... even though u think i dont..... i HAVE been there for you the best i can... and WILL still be here for you... even though what IVE BEEN PUT THROUGH. life aint easy for me... it hasnt been for the past 6 months.... but i have managed and still want/wanted things to work... but it does take two.. i cant do it by myself... Sometimes i wonder if u even think about me.. and think about the family we coulda had... or if it phases u like it phases me.... i guess ill never know.
