There are times I think about the things that are happening in my life and ask myself. Why me? Why now? Why can?t things get better? I don?t want to hurt. I want to stay lit I remember when I was a youngster me and my brother going through some struggles. Dad always doing his things, mom always working, me and him hurting. Why is life so unfair? I wish at that time I was UN aware. My child hood was bad I was always sad. I had to keep my head up, I had to move on with my life cuz if I didn?t move on and I stayed down my face would be worse than a sad clown. This is a mystery I think I am starting to get the parts. This just aint for me. That big happy family I would wish for wasn?t for me! Now im on my knees asking god please help me get through this I don?t want to hurt I haven?t seen him in yrs I haven?t been happy im in tears. I smile on the outside but im hurting. The inside of me is about to break down I have to keep my head up and keep looking forward. You gave me this life for a reason so I am not going to take it for granted maybe the treasure is close maybe all let all my past go??
dont trip home girl you have know clue i could right a fucken book but you aint got shit on my life just make the best of what u got im mean make it better n if it dont work step out of your self n look at it from as many angles as u can im telling u my dad tried to kill us with a sawd off shot gun n the swat team comen for us make it good n i dont cry n tell people that i grew up all fucked up i just dust that shit off but i got some straight fucken stories blow your fucken wig right off na just makes me wiser dont be like that n be so fucken stoopid some peope r so ignorant I MEAN PEOPLE R REALY FUCKEN DUM ass i grow up i realize their so many kinds of people n thier little green bean for a brain true shit stop saying what u dont got make it better fuck the rest.,...;...... i grew up with my mom always working n the peez i grew up with all most all dead..... Im a rider n i am the one that only needs to b good with my self n i been through some shit...... i want to tell my storie so bad i just not done. look past all the stuff dont linger on it move move forward.
Dam me to and thans foe tha advice I hae gone through more shit but dats all dat poped in my head at the time my dad was a drug addict everything u can think of he would even tell some of his friends to go try to hid on my mom foe one fucken beer my mom workin 24-7 me not being raced by her or ma dad I was raced on my own shit my mom trying to get in my life when I was in the point of misery and I really didn’t need her not having my parents by my side till I was 14 fuck na but ya I am making da best of it and I ma keep trying im keeping my head up and not trying to let no vato treat me like shit
