Over my life I?ve done so much wrong
I?ve watched as friend?s family money and life has come and gone
So many bad decisions
So much evil loss was imminent
How was I to know as a little kid
The choices I made then affect me now that I?ve gotten big
How do I react when judgment must release itself
Caught living this life of pure hell
Things are bound to get worse but how so?
Where do I look for help on what I don?t know?
When can I understand things that won?t be shown?
I couldn?t help but become a worse travieso as I?ve grown
My surroundings made me into what I am today
A killer that changes his mentality from day to day
I?m as unstable as water yet as steady as steel
My power grows and my thirst for death is unquenchable
Like a junky I can be very unpredictable
My decision-making changes on a constant basis
So no one can guess my actions for they never understand my phases
I should be just another everyday joe
But death and destruction left me without hope
Now I do as I wish to keep my head afloat
The murk that surrounds me
Though never will you find me hiding
I?m a gangster and that?s all there is to it
No wannabe here my status has been tried and proven
A battle with me so far has ended up with every rival losing
No sideways shooting
I wish to live?to survive
I?m not trying to be the guy that dies to the hand of the other side
But somewhere deep inside myself I wonder if this will ever end
How I even got here?what the hell it is that I did
That made me choose to make this the life I now live?
I?ve watched as friend?s family money and life has come and gone
So many bad decisions
So much evil loss was imminent
How was I to know as a little kid
The choices I made then affect me now that I?ve gotten big
How do I react when judgment must release itself
Caught living this life of pure hell
Things are bound to get worse but how so?
Where do I look for help on what I don?t know?
When can I understand things that won?t be shown?
I couldn?t help but become a worse travieso as I?ve grown
My surroundings made me into what I am today
A killer that changes his mentality from day to day
I?m as unstable as water yet as steady as steel
My power grows and my thirst for death is unquenchable
Like a junky I can be very unpredictable
My decision-making changes on a constant basis
So no one can guess my actions for they never understand my phases
I should be just another everyday joe
But death and destruction left me without hope
Now I do as I wish to keep my head afloat
The murk that surrounds me
Though never will you find me hiding
I?m a gangster and that?s all there is to it
No wannabe here my status has been tried and proven
A battle with me so far has ended up with every rival losing
No sideways shooting
I wish to live?to survive
I?m not trying to be the guy that dies to the hand of the other side
But somewhere deep inside myself I wonder if this will ever end
How I even got here?what the hell it is that I did
That made me choose to make this the life I now live?
