Life In Pain
Every day I stay alone to hide my sorrow and pain.
My life is filled with tears, it feels like there is always rain.
I pray that I die every night, hoping to finish my life.
Everyday is the same, like slits with a knife.
I stay awake and think about what happened in the past.
When will this end, how long will all this last?
My life is nothing but disappointments and regrets,
So all I do is get high and attempt to forget.
It feels like whatever I try to do becomes a mess.
I?ve been told I?m different, never to be like the rest.
They say I?ll never amount to anything, I?ll always be the same.
I know what people think as soon as they hear my name.
I?m not trying to blame others for what a brought on myself.
It was my decisions that brought me to all of this hell.
I wish I could go back and do it in a different way.
That?s impossible to do, so I guess I have to stay.
Now I packed another bowl to see if I feel better.
I?m feeling happy now and I hope it lasts forever.
I know that it won?t, but I wish that it would.
That?s the only time that I actually feel good.
Afterwards I feel worse than when I took the first hit.
I wanna close my eyes and finish all of this shit.
Now I sit here, thinking of all this pain I?ve received.
All the people I hurt, all the ones I deceived.
The more I think, the more I fall into a deeper depression.
Many say I?ll fall straight into the cell of correction.
Yet I still continue down the same path in the end.
I just can?t take no more, so I pull out that little friend.
There is 15 in the clip and one in the chamber,
It?s finally time to end all of this anger.
1 shot is all it takes to end this tragic tale of pain.
Lost every love I had, not one thing did I gain.
Every day I stay alone to hide my sorrow and pain.
My life is filled with tears, it feels like there is always rain.
I pray that I die every night, hoping to finish my life.
Everyday is the same, like slits with a knife.
I stay awake and think about what happened in the past.
When will this end, how long will all this last?
My life is nothing but disappointments and regrets,
So all I do is get high and attempt to forget.
It feels like whatever I try to do becomes a mess.
I?ve been told I?m different, never to be like the rest.
They say I?ll never amount to anything, I?ll always be the same.
I know what people think as soon as they hear my name.
I?m not trying to blame others for what a brought on myself.
It was my decisions that brought me to all of this hell.
I wish I could go back and do it in a different way.
That?s impossible to do, so I guess I have to stay.
Now I packed another bowl to see if I feel better.
I?m feeling happy now and I hope it lasts forever.
I know that it won?t, but I wish that it would.
That?s the only time that I actually feel good.
Afterwards I feel worse than when I took the first hit.
I wanna close my eyes and finish all of this shit.
Now I sit here, thinking of all this pain I?ve received.
All the people I hurt, all the ones I deceived.
The more I think, the more I fall into a deeper depression.
Many say I?ll fall straight into the cell of correction.
Yet I still continue down the same path in the end.
I just can?t take no more, so I pull out that little friend.
There is 15 in the clip and one in the chamber,
It?s finally time to end all of this anger.
1 shot is all it takes to end this tragic tale of pain.
Lost every love I had, not one thing did I gain.
