I can?t take it on these fucking premises another fucking minute
That?s why I?m clutching this pen with white knuckles, as my anger I start spilling it
I fucking swear to God these walls is talking to me
And these fucking demons is stalking me
Whispering evil thoughts in my ear
I guess they want me to grow angrier and take my pains out with liquor and beer
I know I?d soon become a dangerous alcoholic
That?s why to me my soberness is so symbolic
Yet there?s another addiction that starts to grown in my brain
Spreading pain
On this lined paper, welcome to the fucking rap game
It?s like a medicine or Vatican
So I?m letting you know nigga Ima win, like it or not
China, your image spreads through my veins
I wanna be by your side, but it seems my underageness gots me in chains
With so few years on my deck it?d be hard to survive
Though stripes are abundant on my uniform, so fuck strife
I?m used to it
Just like being called a weirdo, I?m accustomed to it
Ten thousand chips on my shoulder
And baby I need you to hold up this soldier
Breathing hard, panting, because it seems like life is almost ova?
I cry so much my eyes is dry, they starting to crack
Simon I wanna hold your hands in mine, that?s a fucking fact!
Like Babe Ruth and baseball stats
I?m inhaling a bit better now
As I come closer to ending this letter now
China just come to me, I?m going nuts, fucking crazy
With you on my mind, these hoe ass niggas will NEVER fade me!
But it is a thin line
So look deep into my eyes
And please remind me that my heart is really kind
